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Friday, 04 May 2012

First update in a while... I know. I've been pretty busy in my personal life lately and havent been able to take the time to post much.

Im moving in with my girlfriend. Yea, were U-Hauling :P:P

Im happy about it and all, I hope it all works out. We fight a lot, but weve been making an effort to better resolve our issues.

Eating wise its pretty good, she has healthy foods around for me :) I eat quite healthy around her actually.
But she does like to spoil me by buying all my favorite junk foods.

I told her about my past, my eating disorder, my bulimia which almost killed me. But I dont think she gets it, or she thinks Im better now and thinks that she is being nice to me by buying me my favorite treats.

I made myself purge twice yesterday because of it, and threw out most of the remaining junk food.

I take adderall in order to keep my bulimia in check, but ive been trying to stop. Its really hard.
I took one today because yesterday I got scared that my bulimia was starting back again from yesterday.

TODAY'S INTAKE:
Some canned tomatoes
some tomatoe soup and one piece of brown bread (very lightly buttered)

one large coffee with one milk, one cream and one sugar

OUTAKE:
I have not exercised in 3 weeks (had my tonsils removed... throat surgery) and couldnt eat for two weeks and was advised not to exercise for 3 weeks because there is a risk of bleeding.

i will get back in to it soon though! there is a womens fitness gym around the corner from my girl's place where im staying so ill get a membership there! :D

DIET---- Im going to try to stick to fruits&veggies and protein.

I feel like I dont crave much sugar and shit that I used to crave. Im content with veggies and like tuna fish.
probably because I am not jogging hours a day like I used to... my body no longer craves the sugar that it burns off in exercise.

Its nice not to have the cravings, but I feel kinda flabby and un-toned.

Sunday, 15 April 2012

Got my TONSILS removed!

Wow, this has been the most painful surgery of life! I'm 22 years old and just got my tonsils removed.
Usually they are taken out when you're a kid, but I've been constantly getting sick and repeatedly get strept throat infections so they decided to make me get a tonsillectomy.

They tell you that you cant eat anything for 10 days.

They say have popsicles and ice chips, but I can barely swallow my own saliva, let alone eat a popsicle.

I guess this surgery could not have been given to me a better time tho :P with swimsuit season around the corner!

Before my surgery my weight was pretty consistently at around 13o-135.

Im hoping to get back down to my average weight of 120-125, then gradually get it down to my UGW of 110.

I'll keep updating :)

So far, since the 12th of April (the day of my surgery) I really havent eaten anything. Im at my girlfriend's place tho, and she doesnt have a scale, so I have no idea what I weigh, but I'll check it once I go back to my house.

Thursday, 09 February 2012

BOO big failure yesterday

Totally fucked up yesterday.

ewww im a fatty. I dont want to be a fatty no more.

going for a jog now. dreading the feeling of my love handles and tummy fat jubbling around under my coat while I run.
looking forward to feeling a little better after the run tho!

have a good Thursday ladies!

Tuesday, 07 February 2012

I suck at posting. Sorry! * NEW DIET IM TRYING*

So lately I've been pretty depressed and it has been difficult to get myself out of my rut.
My rut of coming home from work, and just eating in front of the TV until I fall asleep, messy condo, messy everything, no motivation, just very depressed.

My behavior is prolonging my depression. So yesterday I cleaned my condo top to bottom, went for a long jog, did some yoga, and I feel good! :)

I want to join this all-girls gym, they have yoga classes too. Good way to get to know people too :)

Weight wise I look like shit in my opinion. Im at 129 lbs. but i feel very flabby!!
I used to do toning exercises and jog hours every single day... since the recent depression I have been doing nothing!

I'm getting back in to it though! Ill try to start updating more and posting on how thats going :)

Have a good tuesday ladies!

*New Diet Im trying*
In the morning I buy my coffee, a can of low fat/healthy soup, and a sandwhich.
(Or another healthy meal)

B- for breakfast, I have my coffee with 2% milk, sugar, and or honey.
L- for lunch I have half the sandwhich, and half the can of soup
D- Dinner I have the OTHER half of that one healthy meal :)

This way Im eating one healthy meal a day but spaced out. Good for metabolism! Feel more full, less chance of bingeing. Healthy weight loss that is more likely to stay off!

Sunday, 04 December 2011

*intake :

vegetable and low-cal Cesar dressing (30 cals per tablespoon)

coffee with milk, a bit of creme, and sugar

*Outake:

about to go for a jog... (hours/mins: TBA)

yesterday I had lots of alcohol, and went for a 30 minute jog before I went out to party with my friend.

weight: too scared to weight myself... I feel fat and bloaded and flabby.